I am feeling kinda troubled.

It's been a while since I have dated. Maybe I am out of touch(?) or too shy/sensitive(?), or maybe, I am just wary of men(?)

I like this guy. He's my colleague. A few years younger than me but he's always there when I needed advice/assistance in my work.

And so we finally made out last night. After dinner at East Coast Park hawker centre, we walked to a vacant breakwater and chatted about life, work, family, friends, etc.

I guessed sitting in close proximity to each other probably made us sort of “excited”. And so we kissed. I liked it and I reckoned he probably wanted it. It was sort of very passionate kiss, which I haven't had for a very long long time.

He then touched and felt for my breast in the midst of our passionate kiss. He didn't ask me if he could and probably thought I was fine with his slick "manoeuvre".

It wasn't that I wasn't enjoying his gentle but firm caressing of my breasts. It was actually rather pleasurable, even reminding me of how my ex used to play with them.

However, I suddenly felt maybe(?) we are proceeding a bit too fast on our first date. So I gently moved his hand away to my waist where I was more comfortable being touched and held.

At that moment, he sort of ended our passionate kiss and it was rather awkward for both of us.

I wanted to tell him I wasn't rejecting him. However I didn't want to get into a discussion that might make this relationship a non-starter.

Today, he's sort of avoiding me in the office. I asked him for lunch and he said he needed to rush out some important stuff for his line manager.

Is this relationship over as a consequence of my sort of refusal to allow him to fondle my breasts?

Why men can't handle a little "setback"?

Or maybe, he's just not mature enough for me?

Any thoughts?