2 years ago, like any noob samster, I stumbled onto this forum and started reading up on spas and MLs.
In the beginning, I tried various spas which offered mainly HJs. Then explored a few that provided CBJs and even FJs. For a start, I did not want to go for FJs thinking that I could draw the line. Then, lust took over and I had my first protected FJ in one of the spas. 1 month after the deed I felt guilty and started panicking over the possibility of contracting HIV. I went for anonymous testing and was given the all-clear. Decided to stop as I got scared.
Months after that my dark side returned and I started going for HJs again. This time I only looked up ladies offering HJ with good FRs. Again, lust got the better of me and I started seeking MLs and FLs once more. Without thinking much, I went on to book a ML for a HJ masaage and subsequently a FL, my second protected FJ experience.
This is where things took a turn for the worse. A few days after the deed, my little bro started feeling pain and became swollen. Red spots appeared on my shaft and I freaked out. I thought to myself, what if I caught anything nasty from the FL? I went to the clinic to consult a doctor. He advised me to wait for the window period to pass before undergoing any testing. Gave me some topical cream for the rash.
At that point I felt like my life is over. I have a nice family with 2 kids and I could possibly lose all of them and because I caught this death sentence of a disease. My world suddenly came crashing down on me. During this widow period, I have already made holiday plans with my family for both Christmas and the New Year. How was I suppose to spend it without telling them??
We went on vacation as planned. There I was, secretly monitoring the condition of my little bro while pretending to enjoy the holidays with my kids. It was supposed to be fun for everyone but I couldn't really enjoy myself the least bit.
Upon returning, I rushed to the clinic to take a urine test that would yet require another full week for the results to be ready. My little bro felt so swollen and tensed up; even the back of my scrotum hurt whenever I sat down. The red spots disappeared and came back several times. Once, a drop of discharge even came out and I almost freaked out in the toilet.
And so one long week finally passed. I was cleared of all bacterial STDs.
I had to wait another week before attempting the blood test for viral STDs and HIV. The waiting seriously killed. I suffered from anxiety attacks almost veryday. I lost around 6kg since the day I started panicking. I kept contacting my doctor whenever I felt I witness something different in my condition. All this while he assured me that my condition had little to do with STDs. I tried to be rational, tried my hardest to think positively.
The time eventually came....... I did the blood test and a sab test on my rashes. My doctor spent some time counselling me telling me that he was certain I did not catch anything and was confident of a negative result. My condition was probably some allergic reaction from the soap I used or the fabric of the condom itself.
Another long week passed and blood test results finally out. I especially feared catching Herpes as it is an ailment that sticks with you for life. My doctor called to tell me that my blood tests all came back negative. Upon hearing that, I broke down. Relief washed over in a big way, after enduring an entire month of stress and anxiety. Pending the results of the swab test which he reckon wouldn't be an issue, I was indeed cleared of all STDs and HIV.
Through this episode, I become appreciative of what I have in life and also truly remorseful about what I had done. I wasn't ready for all these worries and panic attacks. I wasn't ready to betray my family for a few minutes of enjoyment. I reflected and prayed at temples. I decided that it was just not worth it.
When I was given the all-clear I felt like I was given a 2nd chance to be with my family and kids. I swore to myself I will never play this game of Russian Roulette ever again.
To some, this may sound like an absolutely trivial affair blown absolutely out of proportion. To others, this could be a life changing episode that makes you think about what you really want in life.
To those who are tempted to check out massage ladies, think hard first before you start. The experience is addictive, and the health risks involved are huge. Do so only if you are mentally prepared to pay for the possible consequences.
To all bros out there who are still chionging, remember to stay safe and healthy.
CNY is coming. 新年快乐!